01. Kintsugi

 

1 am, cannot sleep tonight, my friend

First emotion in a month and it's pain

And although I cannot say this is the end

I still feel I am the one that you could blame

 

1 am, in my heart you're still real

1 am, stop this pain that I feel

You're not there, you're nowhere, truly

 

And yet my heart is breaking again

And fuck your kintsugi, I'm sand

I'll never feel the same under the rain

I'd give my life just to hold your hand

 

2 am, still awake in my bed

Still can't make any sense of myself

I can't give you up, I can't let you go

I can't take that you took the final bow

 

And yet my heart is breaking again

And fuck your kintsugi, I'm sand

I'll never feel the same under the rain

I'd give my life just to hold your hand

 

2 am, please let me sleep

2 am, please give me peace

2 am, please let me sleep

2 am, please give me peace

 

And yet my heart is breaking again

And fuck your kintsugi, I'm sand

I'll never feel the same under the rain

I'd give my life just to hold your hand

 

3 am, please let me sleep

3 am, please give me peace

3 am, please let me sleep

3 am, please give me peace

 

4 am, please let me sleep

4 am, please give me peace

4 am, please let me sleep

4 am, please give me peace

02. Crystallised

 

You were two years older than me

Now I'm one more than you will ever be

So it hurts to know you'll never grow again

Your smile is stuck deep inside my brain

 

Crystallised in time forever

Forever young and beautiful as you were

But when I think about this, however

The pain inside hurts even more

 

I love you my friend

I miss you

 

You were, you were cursed yet so sweet

Now I'm one, one left with the pieces

Of a life that's no longer here, yours

Are you here when my heavy tears pour?

 

Crystallised in time forever

Forever young and beautiful as you were

But when I think about this, however

The pain inside hurts even more

 

I love you my friend, oh

I miss you

 

When my time has come

Will we meet again?

All this pain and some

Will they turn to rain?

All that I don't know

Will it become clear?

Crystallised in time

No hurt, no more tears?

 

Crystallised in time forever

Forever young and beautiful as you were

But when I think about this, however

The pain inside hurts even more

 

Crystallised in time forever

Forever young and beautiful as you were

But when I think about this, however

The pain inside hurts even more

Hurts even more

 

I love you my friend

I miss you

 

Crystallised in time forever

Forever young and beautiful as you were

But when I think about this, however

The pain inside hurts even more

Hurts even more

Hurts even more

03. Lacerate

 

Sad bird still sings

But I can’t spread my wings

Latched, held captive

Buried alive in damask

My soul, putrefactive

It’s sore, it can’t unmask

 

My heart is of brittleness

I see in hued greys

Don't want to drown in bitterness

When coloured were our days

 

The sad bird still sings

But I can’t spread my wings

Fragmented and broken

Like my words gone unspoken

 

The lace comes and speaks to me

Now I see from where it comes

When it talks, it sings of thee

In dark tints, hollow, numb

 

The sad bird still sings

But I can’t spread my wings

Fragmented and broken

Like my words gone unspoken

 

The sad bird still sings

But I can’t spread my wings

 

I won’t let myself surrender

It won’t blacken you, besmear 

All I’ve left of you is tender

I won’t let that disappear

 

The sad bird still sings

But I can’t spread my wings

Fragmented and broken

Like my words gone unspoken

05. Weaker Than Thee

 

The one that was dying

Now's keeping them dry

Her eyes of a sinner

From pitiful cries

The one that was laughing

Now meets Mr. Pain

She learnt how cruel it is

To live all in vain

 

To live all in vain

How cruel she learnt

To live 

How cruel it is

Mr. Pain

 

She tries to, she wants to

She wish she could be

The one made of stone

But she's weaker than thee

 

They keep it and want it

They hate it and torn it

They cry for it, love it

Then fear it and burn it

 

But never they'll see

A brighter tomorrow

For feeding the Beast

Is like craving the sorrow

 

Beast

Craving

Sorrow

Feeding the Beast

Brighter tomorrow

 

She tries to, she wants to

She wish she could be

The one made of stone

But she's weaker than thee

06. Heart In Two

 

Now my whole life

Seems out of time 

My songs don’t rhyme 

The bells don’t chime

My breath is sounding

My heart is pounding

It all seems blue

 

My heart’s in two

My heart’s in two

My heart's in two

 

My heart’s in two

My heart’s in two

My heart's in two

 

My heart’s in two

My heart’s in two

My heart's in two

 

My heart’s in two

My heart’s in two

My heart's in two

 

Not anymore

I’ll hear your voice

But I swear I’ll 

Honour your choice

It tears me up

To have nothing to grieve

I love you but you had to leave

 

My heart’s in two

My heart’s in two

My heart's in two

 

My heart’s in two

My heart’s in two

My heart's in two

 

(One nevermore)

My heart’s in two

My heart’s in two

My heart's in two

 

(One nevermore)

My heart’s in two

My heart’s in two

My heart's in two

 

My heart’s in two

My heart’s in two

My heart's in two

 

My heart’s in two

My heart’s in two

My heart's in two

 

Legs a-shaking

Smiles all faking 

I am, but you

Are you there too?

08. Drown

 

I know that I'd want to escape

But I don't

Because for me it's much too late

 

I know that I'd want to escape

But I don't

Because for me it's much too late

 

Because I've felt death's icy fingers

They tear your flesh while it lingers

Still your voice

 

How can I

Leave a void as grand inside you

When I know

That it's too much to get through

 

Because I've felt death's icy fingers

They tear your soul while it lingers

Still your name

 

Oh, I crave

For that ice lake to stop the pain

But, oh

I could not pass it on, the blame

 

Because those fingers

Twist the thoughts inside your brain

And they don't let go until you've gone insane

 

I know that I'd want to escape

But I don't

Because for me it's much too late

 

I know that I'd want to escape

But I don't

Because for me it's much too late

 

Because I've felt death's icy fingers

They tear your soul while it lingers

Still your name

 

I want to drown

I want to drown

I want to drown

I want to drown

I want to drown

10. Madness Returns

 

Remember, remember

But what will it be? 

Despair, maybe horror

And the devil makes three

 

Forget it, then morph it

Last cage it for me

Your Wonderland's mad

Just as you are, my dear

 

It's not a dream

It's a memory

And it makes me sick

 

Liddell, you're riddle

Orphan by fire

Liddell, you’re in the middle

Your mind will go higher

 

Twirling and flying

Slashing and dying

A vale of tears

In your mountain of fears

 

Eat me, drink me

Twice as much you'd like

Hit me, save you

Be patient then strike

 

It's not a dream

It's a memory

And it makes me sick

 

Liddell, you're riddle

Orphan by fire

Liddell, you’re in the middle

Your mind will go higher

 

Liddell, you're riddle

Orphan by fire

Liddell, you’re in the middle

Your mind will go higher

 

Liddell, you're riddle

Orphan by fire

Liddell, you’re in the middle

Your mind will go higher

11. Song of Nothing

 

It’s silent, still and steady

Tonight it feels so heavy 

But I’m lucky it’s not sold 

All the passion that I hold 

 

Sweat and blood is all I got 

There ain’t nothing that I bought 

Anger sometimes makes me shiver 

I can never be a forgiver 

 

We both know what we went through 

And though it doesn’t make me blue 

For the things we haven’t said 

Cause I have too much ahead 

 

It’s silent, still and steady 

Tonight it feels so heavy 

I’m lucky it’s not sold

All the passion that I hold

 

It’s silent, still and steady 

Tonight it feels so heavy 

I’m lucky it’s not sold 

All the passion that I hold

 

Sometimes I could hear you whisper 

Really didn’t wanna hear 

Did I use to call you sister? 

Looked at my love disappear 

 

It’s silent, still and steady 

Tonight it feels so heavy 

I’m lucky it’s not sold 

All the passion that I hold

 

It’s silent, still and steady 

Tonight it feels so heavy 

I’m lucky it’s not sold 

All the passion that I hold

12. 기억해요 I Remember You

 

The dark is swallowing me

A black hole waiting for me

All that’s past is gone

All I have is this song

 

Twinkle, twinkle, star is dead

In despair was born and bred

Yet its light is still alive

In its dying trail you thrive

 

Born in pain, born to die

Born to fly and say goodbye

Sing the sorrow, sing the pain

He will not have died in vain

 

기억해요

I remember you

사랑해요

I love you, I do

기억해요

I remember you

 

How can I live this through

Oh, how I wish I knew

Your life reduced to dust

To keep you alive I must

 

Yearning, mourning, all for nothing

Make a wish upon the dead

Crying, yelping, uselessness

Let the memories be spread

 

I will carry you, I swear

To the mountains, through the air

To the land where all is singing

Through the pain this all is bringing

 

기억해요

I remember you

사랑해요

I love you, I do

기억해요

I remember you

 

I’ll remember you

I swear I will do

 

Back in my head where you belong

All keeps spinning, there’s a song

It tells me to keep you in my heart

Close to me, to the start

 

All the voices around my bed

Are filling up myself with dread

I won’t give up, your soul is free

Although there’s nowhere for it to be

 

기억해요, 사랑해요

I remember you, I love you, I do

Amidst all the madness

This one thing is true

 

The purest emotions

The deepest devotions

You will find it there

In my soul to spare

 

기억해요

I remember you

사랑해요

I love you, I do

기억해요

I remember you

 

기억해요

I remember you

사랑해요

I love you, I do

기억해요

I remember you

You

02. Sold(ier)

 

Straight to the heart

But you aimed for my head

You lied right from the start

I was unfeigned, unfeigned instead

 

You prepared for the war

While I was still in charge

For the battle at the core

Tried to ruin all my world

 

You believe youʼre so high

Sitting there on your throne

Made of malice and lies

You will fall all alone

An eye for an eye

But I wonʼt sell my soul

Your lake will run dry

I have the ocean as goal

 

I was kicked to the floor

By your shameless ambition

Stomped and hurt, broken boned

But still pledged to my mission

 

Laugh, pretend, donʼt you know

Youʼre the puppet in line

As above, so below

Youʼre set to decline

 

You believe youʼre so high

Sitting there on your throne

Made of malice and lies

You will fall all alone

An eye for an eye

But I wonʼt sell my soul

Your lake will run dry

I have the ocean as goal 

I have the ocean as goal

03. Bleeding Rust

 

I bite my tongue

To make my blood flow

My veins are burning

From the rage you'll never know

 

I’m on my own

But you’re running through my blood

 

I won't stop ripping

Until you're bleeding rust

I won't stop hurting

Until your heart turns into dust

 

Sometimes the pain

It makes our feelings turn to stone

Don't you complain

When hate consumes you to the bones

 

I won't stop ripping

Until you're bleeding rust

I won't stop hurting

Until your heart turns into dust

 

Don’t you feel sorry for me

Go

Go

 

I won't stop ripping

Until you're bleeding rust

I won't stop hurting

Until your heart turns into dust

I won't stop hurting

Until your heart turns into dust

 

Heart into dust

Heart into dust

Heart into dust

04. Split

 

I’ll drag you all high

And leave you there for days

When you are back down

You’ll fall right through the Maze

I will hold the leash tight

And when you think I’m gone

You’ll fall under my might

Until my will be done

 

We battle, roar

We smother your psyche

We prey on ambition

We rip you and bite

We’re Jekyll and Hyde

We’re your shame and pride

We cannot be tamed

I am yours and you’re mine

 

I’ll deprive you of all

You hold dear in your heart

If you lift your head up

I will tear you apart

No tears, no salvation

No ease for your mind

When you find a shelter

You’re crawling in blind

 

We battle and roar

We smother your psyche

We prey on ambition

We rip you and bite

We’re Jekyll and Hyde

We’re your shame and pride

We cannot be tamed

I’m yours and you’re mine

 

You’re famous, you’re glorious

As bright as a star

You’re braver than lions

You’re gonna go far

 

You’re scum and you’re right

You’re worth less than nothing

You’re a maggot, parasite

The Queen of the Souses

 

Tread carefully, dear one

It’s slippery when wet

And the line you overrun

Is the curse that you’ll get

06. Sun Will Rise

 

You fill the void I have inside

But will you tear it open wide?

Don't leave me here, I'd rather be

A teary heart no one can see

 

I need to know that you'll be there

When I'm to face the cross I bear

Don't want you mine, don't want you alone

I need to know that you have all

 

You dream, you want, you feel as yours

Another place, another world

You'll see the Sun rise, it's not a crime

And I'll be watching all the time

 

You dream, you want, you feel as yours

Another place, another world

You'll see the Sun rise, it's not a crime

And I'll be watching all the time

 

As long as you walk, I'll walk by

And if you fall, I'll catch you right

Before you're slipping to the ground

You know that to yourself I'm bound

 

I'll act this show until it ends

I’ll act this show until it ends

My heart may break, but always mends

 

You dream, you want, you feel as yours

Another place, another world

You'll see the Sun rise, it's not a crime

And I'll be watching all the time

 

You dream, you want, you feel as yours

Another place, another world

You'll see the Sun rise, it's not a crime

And I'll be watching all the time

 

You dream, you want, you feel as yours

Another place, another world

You'll see the Sun rise, it's not a crime

And I'll be watching all the time

07. Out of the Mist

 

Desert is calling me

I refuse to give in

On my hands, on my knees

The wars I fight enrage within

 

Out of the mist I walk alone

Cleansing my mind through fire

Out of my mess I carry on

Out of the mist I linger

Out of the mist I must atone

Forsaking the black and the stone

Out of my mess I’ll teach myself

Out of the mist I wander

Lost no more

 

Echoes from the ravine

And I feel unclean

Into this shroud I’ll wrap my sins

Unbound, unbent it must begin

 

Out of the mist I walk alone

Cleansing my mind through fire

Out of my mess I carry on

Out of the mist I linger

Out of the mist I must atone

Forsaking the black and the stone

Out of my mess I’ll teach myself

Out of the mist I wander

Lost no more

 

Sanctuary

Of my misery

Prison

For the insane

Asylum

Is the world we’re in

This fight

It must begin

This fight

It must begin

This fight

It must begin

08. Choke and Die

 

You never wasted words on me

Nor time, nor thoughts, nor shallow tears

I'm sick of fading just for you

And now my dreams are hollow too

I'm not a baby, I'm not a doll

I'll smash your face against the wall

 

Christ I'll be glad to taste your tears

 

I only hope you choke and die

I wish to make you cry

And if I could I'd rip your heart

For all the times you've torn me apart

 

Surprised ain't you to see me rise

Reviving as my tears petrifies

Not anymore you'll see me creep

Because that thorn now stands too deep

If you’re like me then go away

Or you'll know sorrow has a name

 

And keep for you your fucking rose

 

I only hope you choke and die

I wish to make you cry

And if I could I'd rip your heart

For all the times you've torn me apart

 

I only hope you choke and die

I wish to make you cry

And if I could I'd rip your heart

For all the times you've torn me apart